I’m Standing on the Edge of Me

Things have changed.

And will change.

Rather drastically.


I just walked off another chapter of my life. High school. It seems that I spent most of that time being emo and depressed (not that I’m not like that now) and caring about someone who didn’t care about me at all.

It’s as if during those times, those struggles defined who I was…

However, I have to remember that that chapter of my life is over and gone.

For in less than a month, I will be headed off into a new chapter of my life: college. I will get to meet new people, socialize, take part in clubs and activities, all the while learning skills that I will use in my decided profession (or not). For the first time in my life, I will be living away from my home. There won’t be anyone to tell me what to do. No one to tell me to fold my clothes, put away my underwear, and clean the garbage pile that I call a desk.

For the first time in my life I will experience independence. That is, in the sense that I will be responsible for my own needs. I will be responsible for eating meals at the correct times. I will be responsible for my clothes, my use of time, and more. My parents won’t be watching me every second. It’s exciting, but scary.

It’s especially crucial that I learn how to manage things well. I will be a double major in both psychology and music. I will most likely be practicing piano for hours a day, while studying psychology and various other electives. Not to mention my blogging responsibilities, as well as the clubs I will join.

Will I actually be able to manage my time properly? Or will I fail at it?

I do know that college will change me in ways I can’t even imagine.

Forgetting him will take a while.

But that’s life for you. You do what you can with the time that’s given to you.

You follow the road that unfolds at your feet.



Jonas Brothers: Male or Female?

Hilarious. I saw this on the ROFLrazzi blog.

They only just released a new album a couple of weeks ago, and I guess it has sold pretty well. However, I don’t like their music or their voices…


Whenever I read about celebrities like them, I always wonder what’s going to happen to them when they grow up. Will they be forgotten completely? Or will they end up like one of those people who are drug addicts and alcoholics? Or will they settle down to a quiet life with a wife and children and take their children to church every Sunday? What will they do? The eldest is 20 something, and the  youngest is probably either still in high school or college. They’re young.

They have time to grow up.

I also wonder what would have happened if they hadn’t been “discovered”? Would they have gone to college and gotten jobs in fields other than music? What would they have chosen?

Considering how things are, I wonder if they’re ever going to really appeal to older adults. Because sooner or later they’re going to want to stop reaching out mainly to the preteen crowd and reach a wider audience that isn’t just made of 12 year old fangirls. I believe they spoke of it some time ago… it’s the way of the musician. At some point you graduate.

You don’t just stay where you are.

Of course they MIGHT be satisfied with just reaching out to the age group they’re appealing to right now. But it’s the way of the musician to grow and change. At some point you start changing in your desires and thoughts. Though you remain yourself, your outlook changes with the experience gained throughout the years. Maybe sooner or later they would find themselves dissatisfied and wanting to do something different. To branch out, to grow.

It’s not a bad thing.

But it’s up to us to make of life’s changes what we will.

God Sighting

2453571862_8dbe199a8eAt VBS, I was introduced to the “God sighting.” A God sighting is when you see something that makes you think about God. It could be a pet, the trees, the sand at the beach, or a person. At the end of each session, I was supposed to ask my five kids about their God sightings for that day. At first their answers were, “I don’t know. I have no idea.”

After some time, their answers changed. They said that I was in fact their God sighting. I was amazed. I mean, me? Their God sighting? Their hugs convinced me that they really meant it.

Which led me to think…

My God sighting is different. I believe that children are truly a God sighting.

For one thing, they have the power to humble us with a look or a few words. “You broke your promise. Why did you break your promise? You said you’d do it.” They have such innocence that they put us to shame. They have such wonder in life that we sometimes gaze at them wistfully and wish we could still have that wonder, as if we were seeing the world for the first time. Children have also mastered the “reproachful” look. I know Cailyn has.

My little brother has such power, as a child. I do something wrong, and he notices. After noticing, he announces it loudly. Sometimes in front of a crowd of people.

2977861605_391b2e2186However, children can have such faith in us as leaders. They can respect us even when we know deep inside that we’re not worthy of their respect. They trust us even though we know that we don’t deserve that trust. They offer us their love, even though we could hurt them. That same wonder at life makes me feel that they’re begging us as leaders not to fail them, not to let them out. Not to break our promises. We know that if not us, then others are going to fail them.

But that doesn’t keep us from trying.

My kids gave me confidence even though I was so unsure of myself at first. I felt that they were telling me to keep on stepping out on faith. They didn’t know that I was trembling inside. They didn’t know that I had to fight myself every step of the way…

Their faith, respect, trust, and love encourage us to keep going in spite of our failings. Children remind us that God is always with us, even through our inadequacies…

(Post dedicated to Ms. Cory ^_^)

How to Guide for Cat Owners

I found this on another blog. Did some minimal editing to remove a swear.*


Hilarious. And crazily accurate. My aunt has a cat who is like this cat. That cat does a lot of staring, eating plants and regurgitating them, sprinting at light speed out of any room I enter, and hides in dark places and watches people. I’ve never seen her sleep on electronics. And thank Ceiling Cat, that cat never ever brought in dead animals.

“This isn’t a gift. It’s a warning.”

It’s a helpful guide to any cat owner, guaranteed. Good luck staying alive!

I shall close with a favorite LOL of mine.

funny pictures of cats with captions

(Think of it another way. Maybe they want to kill you when you’re vulnerable and naked. I don’t know.)

*There was another caption, saying “Cats. Sneaky ****ers.”